This blog is meant to be uplifting, though its ‘uplift’ has stemmed from loss. Tonight, I can’t help feeling consumed by sadness at our world and the evil that seemingly resides in it.
I did not know Jo Cox. I had never even heard of Jo Cox. Yet tonight I am deeply sad and moved to tears watching the news. A woman, not that much older than me with children of similar ages to mine, murdered in her home town. Two children who will barely remember their mother, who will grow up without her.
I can’t pretend to know how that feels. Losing her was the hardest thing I have ever endured but I was an adult, able to process my emotions, try and understand it, almost prepare for it (though nothing can prepare you). These are two small children. How can they even begin to process where their mummy is tonight? When I was out giving blood last night my husband put our children to bed, little LJM2 asking repeatedly for ‘mummy’, as she always does. I wasn’t there and she slept. I can’t comprehend how that, for those children, that is forever. Mummy isn’t coming back. My heart is breaking for those children.
Losing a mum is like a special sort of ugly club that you don’t want to belong to. At the same time you find people who understand you and it. No one wants to be in that club. No one wants others to join them. When they do, the club members feel like they should have the words to say to the newly bereaved but they can’t find them. At that moment, there’s nothing more awful and nothing anyone can say to make it better. I am a lucky member as I joined fully grown. There should be no children in it but now there are two more. A mum is a guiding light, there to raise you to adulthood. In all intents and purposes, mine fulfilled that role. Jo never got the chance. She was a wife, a daughter and a million other things too, a rising political star by all accounts.
I am angry as well as sad tonight that someone thought that it was ok to take her life. Just why? When did anything become more important than life itself? We will probably never know the answers. Tonight our thoughts are of her.
Tomorrow I plan to deposit chocolate gifts and notes of appreciation in my colleagues’ pigeon holes at work. This poses a big risk in being “discovered” but I’m hoping that those on the receiving end appreciate the anonymity of our kindness campaign if they do figure it out! The people I’ve chosen to be on the receiving end of this RAK are not those I work particularly closely with on a day to day basis. Instead, they are people who are always positive. Their smiles are genuine, their “how are yous” real and far from a formality.
Every single one of them has, at some point, made me think “s/he is a really nice person” and I want to show my appreciation. Work places need people like you!
So, to those on the receiving end, THANK YOU for having a positive impact on my working life.
Today I had to meet a friend at the train station and as littlest LoveJoinMe was taking a nap I planned my two RAKs. I had thought of doing them a long time ago, right at the beginning of our RAK journey but had never had the time to plan them before a visit to the station.
The first RAK was £2 left on the ticket machine to go towards a train ticket, the second was £2 left on the vending machine for a drink or snack.
It was quite a challenge waiting for the upstairs foyer to be completely empty before sticking the envelopes to the screens as it was a busy lunch time but I managed to be very discreet and didn’t get seen!
Five minutes later, after meeting my friend, both envelopes were gone!
Whoever you are, I hope it brightened your day!
It was all over social media this morning how today is Blue Monday – the most depressing day of the year apparently.
I started the day with a mission to make it not so! Firstly, I tweeted a national petrol station about the excellent service I’d received last night in the hope that the message gets passed on. Secondly, I took part in a Pay It Forward scheme at a local food outlet and bought soup and bread for a homeless person.
I hope these two acts brighten someone else’s day!
#ljm #lovejoinme #rak11
I often work through lunch but decided that today, while eating my lunch I would look for a Random Act of Kindness I could do online. I stumbled upon the website www.freerice.com, which is a non-profit website run by the United Nations World Food programme. If you like doing quizzes on all sorts of topics, or if you’re a student who needs to revise something specific you can do so on this website AND give free rice to someone in desperate need of food. For every question you get correct they donate 10 grains of rice and in just a few minutes of quizzing I have earned 1110 grains of rice for someone hungry! I plan on adding to this total whenever I have a few spare minutes or just need a breather from a piece of work.
The blog post is a little late in coming due to LoveJoinMe being busy! This one is for Syria. I’m sure a lot of you struggle to look at the news pictures and not feel moved at the moment. The picture that seemed to change things for a lot of people was the picture of the little boy washed up on the Turkish beach. One of LoveJoinMe has been to that beach, the other has a three year old who looks remarkably similar to the little Aylan Kurdi. The image sat with me for a long time and so we decided to make a donation to Save The Children in the hope that it may help in some small way. Save the Children were running the hashtag #itcouldhavebeenme and, looking at the picture of Aylan from one angle, it certainly could have been my son.